the lucielle roberts biggest loser

Today as I was working out at the gym I noticed them taking pictures of woman who obviously needed to lose some weight. So I asked why they were taking pictures. It seems they are having a Lucielle Roberts version of the biggest loser. Although they already have 20 people already signed on she asked if I would like to also join. I would be the alternate. If someone drops out or isn't losing weight as "lucielle" would like then I will be replacing them.. It keeps me in check cause she is going to be calling me every monday to check in with me. It runs for 6 weeks so we will see how I do. Too bad it wasn't 6 weeks ago cause I am down 20lbs..that would have help out the team. I think they are trying to see which gym town loses the most. I don't know if we win anything..but we lose something hopefully!!
I posted new pictures 20lbs down. check them out. Can you see anything??
Hey dietking thanks for the comments..I love to hear from you daily!!!

I jumped on the scale at my gym. You know those medical ones. I was always close to the 250 side but of course more than 250. I always hated them to move that over to the 250 block. well i was glad to stay on the 200 block.. Does anyone know what I mean?? Well it was 248 but still under 250. I am not worried cause it was immediately after working out and they say that you shouldn't weigh or measure yourself after working out. I just can't wait to get to ONEDERVILLE!!! I am having my mother buy my uniforms in one size lower in pant and shirt. I will definately be fitting in it by December if not earlier. She always gets me uniforms for work for xmas. My clothes now are slightly baggier than I usually have them. I don't really like tight fitting clothes.. I know the roles are there..no need for everyone else to see them.
PS hopped on my mom's scale at her house (couldn't resist) and it stated 242. go figure!! Took pictures for 20lb weight loss total.. will upload them later if I get a chance.

monday weigh in

Well the scale is finally seeing things my way. I woke up to 242 this morning. Yeah me!!! I was beginning to think I was stuck in a 250 zone. I've been trying to avoid the scale except for on mondays so this week I was actually surprised to see it down to 242. Although sunday when I weighed myself it was 240. Regardless its 20lbs down give or take a few is my answer when asked. Last time it seemed that more people noticed my weight coming off than this time. Although when asked about dieting people will comment that I did good on atkins last time and question if I even gained anything back. I am close to where I was last time. I think I got down to 238ish.. So 4 more lbs to go for that.
For my birthday I cheated majorly. Pancakes. and syrup for breakfast and fried chicken wrap with onion rings for dinner.. But I didn't hurt me in the end.. Even if I did, would I do it again ... HELL YEAH!!! 35 only comes once.

tomorrow start 1 yr to deadline

Well tomorrow is my 35th birthday. Always I have said I wanted to be skinny by then. Well oops!! Well I set another deadline up for next year same time. I've been doing Ok diet wise but haven't really seen anything on scale. Although I feel that I am getting into shape more with diet. My clothes are starting to feel loose, although thats hard to tell also since I wear EVERYTHING so baggy anyway. I've been very busy in school lately and haven't much time to post.. sorry to those repeat readers.. although would love to hear from you (pidge and dietking especially). I want to throw out my scale. Its back up to 250-251 again. Can't seem to break the 240's. I bounce back and forth from 246 to 250 with just a sneeze. And yes I am doing on the hard floor this time.
With exercise I go every monday night, wed and thurs and would like to say every sunday too..but that depends on my saturday night. If I worked late and can't sleep sunday is out since they are only open til 1pm. I am not a morning person. I am up to 30mins on the elliptical machine which is a great accomplishment for me since when I started I was pushing it to finish 15mins. I can't lie and say 30mins is easy, cause let me tell you there is a major battle that goes in my head to quit at 20-25mins. But then when I am in the last 5 mins.. I say well I someone comes and wants the machine I will stop.. but it never happens. LOL
But I guess thats for the best.
I'm currently 100 lb above the target weight. My deadline for my goal is 366 days (52 weeks, 2 days) away. To meet my goal I need to lose about 1.91 lb per week. -- YUCK!!

busy with school

Didn't really have time to do much today- wanted to go to the gym but I had to be at a meeting for school by 11 and after dropping son off it doesn't leave me much time. I got my hair cut recently (every lb helps LOL). Not really sure if I like it yet. Well I am going to run to bed. Weight unchanged from last weigh in. To all that read, lets keep losing!!!

day 23

Well I hopped on the scale this morning and it read 3 different weights. So I was think WTF. So I had a brain storm, maybe I should take it off the carpet. So I did and the scale read 246 x 3. So I am taking it. My hubby just tripped over the scale in the hallway. OOPS, LOL. Well off to work!!!
I'm currently 96 lb above the target weight. The deadline for my goal is 374 days (53 weeks, 3 days) away. To meet my goal I'll need to lose about 1.8 lb per week.

Day 22

So I went to the gym tonight after school. I was glad to see I could actually run on the elliptical machine for the entire 30mins. A few weeks ago I was struggling to get thru 15mins. Well I was still struggling to get thru the 30mins, but it felt great after I was done!! Boy was I mad today when I got on the scale, no weight change. When I went to the gym I wanted to get measured but the girl I normally get measured by was not there tonight. I asked if she was on monday nights cause that was going to be my measuring date and she said no. She offered to measure me and said that she measures closly to the other girl. So if that is true in 6 days I lost 1/2 inch in my arm although she said that I should actually measure my left whereas the other girl measured my right. My chest increased, boy do I hate that, but she said that was probably due to a different bra. My waist down 1 inch, abdomen down 1/2 inch and my hips down an inch. My thighs were exactly the same. So I guess with those changes I should be happy anyway. But I would really like to see the change in the scale. I guess the true challange will be when I get measured by the same girl next month. We shall see. Well off to bed, work tomorrow. Down 13lbs as of day 22.
I'm currently 99 lb above the target weight. The deadline for my goal is 375 days (53 weeks, 4 days) away. To meet my goal I need to lose about 1.85 lb per week.

day 21

I have to touch on 9/11 - being that its anniversary is today. I prayer for all that have lost there significant others and children whom have lost there parents. We are struggling thru a big loss in the gulf right now also but 9/11 is not forgotten. I am grateful that I didn't lose anyone that I knew personally but truely feel for those who did in both places. I wish you luck getting thru today and the rest of your 9/11 days.

On to a happy post:
Wow I see that some people have been checking out my posts, I like the comments made by people already. The motivation keeps me going. I've been working from 11am-11pm for the last two days so no posts for those days. Today I wanted to head over to the gym but husband had a job to do this am. And then we are heading over to my mothers house to close the pool. Summer is coming to an end. I will take my kids for a walk while my mom and husband are closing the pool That will be some exercise and I will bring my chem book to study from.

School is busy- tomorrow I start my first clinical session for this semester at the county hospital. Not really looking forward to it, don't like being a PCA again. You would think that they would let us do the "nursing" end of the care but they want us to do total head to toe care for any patients that we get. The PCA's love when we are there. I only have 9 clinical sessions at the county and then 1 on campus testing day and then 3 psych rotations at Syossett hospital. Hopefully it will be over before I know it. That is the only had part I had with dieting last semester. Lunch in the cafeteria, not always the best choices. I guess I will just have to see what the county (NUMC) offers. Can't go wrong with salad. Last time I was doing the Atkins diet I restricted ALL carbs from my diet. I literally had tops 5-10 carbs a day. This time I am trying to limit myself to no more than 20. I am hoping to have a life style change that will make me keep to the diet this time.

I had posted a weight change on day 19. It seems that either my scale was lying to me that day or I gained back the loss that I posted. Serves me right for hopping on the scale mid-week. I am waiting til monday to see if there is anything really lost. But so far its reading the same amount from the week before. Sorry for those that read that loss, wasn't trying to deceive anyone.

Day 18

Working out and feeling better. Its amazing that after you work out how much energy you have. School was stressful today. Its true what they say, a good work out can relieve alot of stress. I am glad that I have this membership and are continuing to go to the gym. Tomorrow is back to work for 2 days then off for 1 and then off to clinical on monday. Yeah me! But it all leads to the end goal of being an RN.

gym again

With school and work going to the gym when I now want to go is now difficult. I went to the gym again today. I worked out for about 45mins. 10mins on the running machine and the rest of the time working out my upper body. I am going to the gym with my sister in law nicole (whom by the way is very thin). I feel good after going to the gym. I am going to go tomorrow after I drop my son off at school. Tuesday, wednesday and sunday will be my only gym days. The rest of exercising will be down with nightly walks (hopefully). Getting out there is the hardest part.
I bought some low carb whole wheat torillas and they were absolutely disgusting. Such a shame. I guess I'll be sticking to my whole wheat pita's instead.

Not the best day but not the worst

Well I only ate once today.. And I made it a big meal. I had grilled chicken, with lettuce, tomato and mayo on a tortilla wrap. Boy how I love the wraps. They are like 20 carbs alone though. And then to top off my meal I had ice cream with the kids. Not a good idea but enjoyed ever bit of it. It was my sons first day of 2nd grade and last year we went to friendly's so we did it again this year.
So I made myself go to the gym tonight. I tried to talk myself out of it a million times. But my good side won. I exercised on the running machine and a bike for 25mins. I got there when the club was almost closed. I had the girl measure me first so I could have a starting base for my measurements again. So all and all not the best day but not the worst!!

Mom knows

Well Weighed in today at 249 I am excited. 13lbs totally lost as of today. I started this diet on august 22nd and I feel like this time I could actually keep to it. But who knows. with having to post every night I feel accountable. Which is a good thing. Which is making my choice to post more a yes decision. For now I know its only me who knows (and PJ my friend). Although I feel that sometimes I babble and who would want to listen to that. LOL. I guess even if no one really reads it as long as I feel they do and I am feeling accountable I will do my best to go on!!

My mom knows that I am on a diet. She keeps talking about how much my sister lost and doesn't seem interested in my loss. I was hoping that I didn't have to tell her but that she would notice like she did once before when I was on a diet. But we had a conversation about xmas presents and what size shirt she should buy me and I said I didn't know. I would tell her in a couple of months..and she basically said I am shopping next month I need to know. So I told her next month I will let you know cause I am on a diet now and you never know.

Goal Progress
I am currently 99lbs above the target weight.
The deadline for my goal is 382 days (54 weeks, 4 days) away.
To meet my goal I need to lose about 1.81 lb per week.

Almost ready to publish

Well tomorrow is week 2 WI. I am nervous. I just hope that I am at either 251 or less. I have been bouncing back and forth from 251 to 253. I didn't eat hardly at all today. Not a good thing. Busy at work and then my son was sick so I just forgot to eat. That is one thing that isn't a problem for me. I can go all day without eating. I have had 2 egss so far today. I am about to make a tuna fish sandwich I think unless something in the freezer grabs me. Again its 11:25 pm and I am eating. I really need to stop the late night eating.. but its my down time and so I eat. I am looking to go to the gym starting Tuesday. My son goes back to school and I will go to the gym after I drop him off on tuesdays and wednesdays. Hey I guess I should use the membership that I've paid for. Tomorrow is a holiday hope everyone behaves for the holiday. I am going to see my mother tomorrow..lets see if she says anything..its really early yet so I doubt it. I can't wait to see my sister.
I am trying to update this website as much as possible. I've decided to publish it hope everyone likes it. But also I hope no one I know personally sees it, like co-workers cause then I might have to make it private again, LOL. I have to ask my friend for permission before publishing it.. cause I might have to take her link out to her webpage. Day 14

Goals

My ultimate goals for the weight loss are as follows:
1) try and exercise 5x week at least - even if its just a nightly walk
2) no more eating when I get home from work at 11pm
3) continue drinking plenty of water.
4) log in as much as possible and keep track of how I am doing
5) lose at least 1.5 lbs per week to get to my goal (deadline) before sept 22, 2006

I didn't post yesturday couldn't think of anything really to say. My mother is really proud of my sister you can tell by the way she talks about her. She doesn't know about me being on atkins again. She might suspect cause I asked her the other day about how many carbs were in something while I was at the store but she hasn't asked why I was asking. I haven't seen her in a while and I am going to her house tomorrow.. Maybe she will notice that I lost 11 lbs so far (well when I jumped on the scale today that is what it said.)

I keep on debating whether or not to make this public. Well I guess if your reading it I have. I love reading other peoples sites I wonder if they will enjoy mine as much.

Goal Progress
I am currently 103lbs above the target weight.
The deadline for my goal is 383 days (54 weeks, 5 days) away.
To meet my goal I need to lose about 1.88 lb per week.

My sister wendy

I have been upgrading my website and have found some special websites to add links for friends to view. One of which is my new friend Pidge that I talked about before. The other is a site called 3 fat chicks which gives me alot of support for my weight loss journey. The other site is my sister's site. She had gastric bypass surgery and the webpage takes you on her journey.
As much as I am excited for my sister cause she has lost already a whopping 22 lbs in less than 3 weeks. I have to admit I am jealous. Well of some things anyway. She has been in alot of pain, but in the end that pain will be worth it. She is going to be skinny WAY before I will be. And not that we are in a competition but it was always a comfort not being the only heavy child of 3. My sister Ronnie has always been skinny, she got the skinny gene. Whereas my sister Wendy and I have always been overweight. Now in no time at all I will be the only one left on the plus side of the scale. But hopefully not for long.
I think that it gives me the extra push to reach my goal. I am proud of her for taking a stand and doing the surgery. Its not for me but that is just me!!

Where I found my friend

Well tonight I did a long walk. At first I just walked around my development. And then I decided that I wanted to go to the store. I thought that I would be tired after walking around the entire development but much to my surprise I was ready for more. So I decided to walk to the store, save the gas. Which is much needed since gas prices are now 3.20 plus a gallon for regular. I am not sure how much I walked tonight but I was about an 1 hr of time total.. including walking in the store. And then carrying the bags home was some added weight. I have made a new friend today. If you click on the above lighthouse looking icon maybe you too can find needed information and support. I am hoping that together we can go thru this weight loss journey together and make each other stick to it. And if we fall off have the courage to be truthful and then have the courage to just jump right back on the weight loss wagon!! If at first you don't succeed try try again!! Below is my weight loss challenge. I would like by my birthday 2006 to weigh 150 lbs. My birthday is Sept. 22nd so that gives me over 1 full year!! I should be able to do it!! We will all see!!

Keeping it going!!

I am not sure that I am doing this right cause its all new to me. I like being able to discuss my feelings online and be able to look back on them in the future. I have been checking out other people's message boards and am surprised. One girl puts it all out there. She just talks about everything and anything. It must be nice to be free like that. Its envy talking. I am thinking about publishing my postings for the wold to see. But with putting pictures you never know who I know that will find me. So for now I am keeping it to myself.
Today was a sad day. I went to one of my co-workers neice's wake. Sad at 11 and having your whole life ahead of you to have to say goodbye to the world. My son has asked in the past what happens when we die and I just had to answer truthly " I just don't know". He is 7 by the way for those who don't know. His name is Anthony. The other picture is Alexandria and she is 3. My children are my world and I hope to be able to be there for them until they are well past my age. But unless I stick to this diet I don't see that happening.
I kept to diet today. This morning had bacon, was going to make eggs. I just really didn't feel like it. This afternoon I had bacon cheesburger on plate with ketchup. And then for dinner had salad with cucumbers and 2 eggs. The definate atkins way!! Lots of protein and not alot of carbs. Generally you are allowed 20 carbs a day in the beginning. But I am limiting myself to less than that. I am debating back and forth whether or not to do Atkins or Weight Watchers. But in this beginning section I want to has fast results. I will slowly change to WW to make it a life long change which is my ultimate goal.
Today I woke up to my monthly friend. I was wondering why I felt so hungry, more than usual. And why I felt bloated, also more than usual. Hopefully when "martha" (which is what I call her) leaves, She will take a lot of lbs with her!!! Till next time.

Goal Progress
I am currently 105lbs above the target weight.
The deadline for my goal is 387 days (55 weeks, 2 days) away.
To meet my goal I need to lose about 1.9 lb per week.